In the above pictures is a before and after of me when I was at my worse and how I am now and OMG I did not think I would look different but the positive feelings I am having have so changed how I am looking at myself.
The last few weeks I have been focusing on my mental health and looking at what have been eating and my look on life and I was always the one that looked at the negative stuff instead of appreticating what I have actually got.
I would always focus on the negative stuff and always think the worse case of every situtation, and this would drag everyone around me down and eventually noone wanted to be round me or want to talk to me because I would be negative in my answers and then when I would look back and think I should of not said what I said or the actions I did.
I have slowly over the last few weeks, have turned that round and instead of focusing on the negative I have reflected more on the positive things I have. I am thankful I have a roof over my head and can put food on the table, which is a big step for me because I would always worry that I would lose my house and where would I get the money from to put the food on the table and since I have looked at what I have got, I have more time and I have more than most have and to me I appreticative of this.
I have started listening to music more and I am also listening to people on podcast (how have I not listened to podcasts before), I am currently listening to reroot by eamon and bec and they have been so helpful with some of things they talk about and how to reflect on the positive things in your life and to appreiate what you have in the here and now, and listening to the spiritual people on there has been a light blub moment for me and I would like to thank them for helping me through a bad time in my life by just been so positive and unlifting, and making me smile at the silly things again.
I am looking forward to been able to get out in the campervan again and travelling when we are able to and to appreicate my surrounds more and seeing the world through a fresh set of eyes and picking up my camera and capturing them moments again, and blogging about all the good times that are to come, and sharing that with you all.