Had my first counselling appointment today and it was very strange.
Tonight was very different to how I have had counselling appointments in the past as it was done over the telephone.
She was very well spoken and spoke softly and gentle which made me feel at ease even over the phone, she spoke about who she was and what their practice was about and confidentiality and that whatever I said was between us.
I was asked a few questions about how I was feeling and what I might think is causing me to feel like I am, she helped me calm myself with some gentle mindfulness and a few other little tasks which helped dramically and I was able refocus myself on what I was talking about.
She listened without interupting me and when I paused long enough she would then repeat what I said and used mentifors to help me see a situation from a different angle.
We talked about my goals and where I would like to be in the future with myself and how I think we should get there but also suggested a few options too, which seem a bit more manageable for me at the minute.
We also talked about what I should do between this appointment and my next so was given a small task to do, which is to do 5 miuntes at least a day of mindfulness to help bring myself to the present. I am to do this until my next appointment.
At the start of the call I was worried about what I was going to say and was very nervous, but by the end of the call I felt better within myself for just been able to talk about some thoughts and feelings I have been having, I didnt feel judged and she never once made me feel like I had to be anything but myself throughout it all.
I am looking forward to my next appointment and been able to finally but these thoughts, feelings, demons to rest finally, i know it is going to be a long road, but one that I am wanting to take to better myself, and give those who are still around their friend back their daughter, mother, sister back.