For the last 18-24 months I have changed my mind on so many things to do that no one can keep up.
I was going to set up my own cleaning business, I was going to progress in to managment at the place I worked, I was going to be a home carer, I was going to go to university and do a degree, I was going to go back to college, I have had so many things I wanted to do that I would start doing them and then a few eeks later I would change my mind.
This was very fustrating not just for me but for others around me, and I still do not know what to do with my time, I still do not know what I want to be when I grow up!!
I have worked in primary schools most of my life, and at that point in my life I loved every minute of it, but then when I started working with SEN children and then having to come home and deal with it there it was 24 hours and day 7 days a week and it was taking its toll, not just on me but my family too.
I decided to not work with children anymore and went into a variety of jobs when I left, I was a cleaner, sales assitant, second man with my partner, worked in a fast food resturant, and a few others, but never felt satisfied with any of them and still don’t.
I do not know what I am good at, or where to begin looking either. I have an abundance of knowledge but do not know what to with it? I would not know where to start to help me with this or even if there is help with dealing with what to do next in my life.
All I know is whatever I choose to do it will mean me going back to college to train for and then to try and get experience in that field, the other question that plays on my mind is, I am getting to old to be training myself in something new and would it stick and sink in? Would I be any good once I get there?